6-12-2011 6:12AM TSQC
Dear Loved One
Written in Notepad-kaya di maayos ang formatting
Dear Loved One:
as you are reading this, i have gone. naka alis na ako patungo sa kung saan.
hindi natin alam kung saan ang nakatakda para sa akin. What's important now
is that i am here to say that I LOVE U VERY MUCH!
also, i am here to give myself my own eulogy. please read this to the people
who will attend my wake (kung meron man?! hahaha)
Euologies are most often talking about the great deeds a dead person has done
in his lifetime. here, i will be as truthful as i can so that it can be the
most honest and lesson learning eulogy of all.
Sa ibang ganitong pagtitipon, ang pinag sasabi ng mga tagapagsalita ay ang mga
mga magagandang ala-ala ng namayapa. sa aking pagawa nito ang aking iniisip ay
huwag ng pahirapan ang mga taong mag-isip sapagkat baka wala silang maisip na
maganda o mabuting nagawa ko sa kanila.
People usually FORGET the good things you have done when you have committed
the slightest MISTAKE or you have OFFENDED them. This is true. It is the
HURTING TRUTH ladies and gentlemen. Maaring sa ngayon ay hindi ninyo matata-
ngap ang pahayag na ito, ngunit kung inyong bibigyang pansin at susuriin ang
mga nakalipas na panahon sa inyong buhay ng may MALAWAK NA PAG-IISIP
(open mind), you will be able to agree with me.
As i am doing this, this early morning of Independence Day 2011, nararamdaman
ko ang paglaya ng aking isip. Kadalasan sa ating buhay nare-realize natin
ang mga mahahalagang bagay kapag ito'y nakalipas na o kaya naman ay wala na.
ang naiiwan sa atin ay ang PANGHIHINAYANG.
sa aking pag alis sa mundong ibabaw, marami ang HINDI makakadama ng panghihi-
nayang sapagkat hindi nila naramdaman ang aking halaga o kaya naman ay
nalimutan o natabunan na aking nagawang kakarampot na kabutihan sa kanilang
buhay. YES! that is true. i cannot enumerate how may times i have been USED
and ABUSED. ang later on branded as THE BAD GUY o ang WALANG HIYANG NILALANG.
i admit being that person. i admit being insensitive to peoples' feelings.
i also admit being intentional when speaking or telling people how i feel or
when expressing the truth as i see it.
MAy mga pagkakataon na ako naman ay nagpipilit na maging malumanay NGUNIT angkatotohanan kadalasan ay TALAGANG NAPAKASAKIT! It is hard to admit, digest and realize but SO EASY to DISREGARD, FORGET, and PRETEND NOT KNOW. iyan po ang SIMPLENG KATOTOHANAN sa BUHAY ng tao. sa ganang ito, ako ay nahihirapan mas madalas sa hindi na IPAHAYAG ANG TOTOO dahil maraming matatamaan at masasaktang damdamin pero iyan ang AKO.
i never hesitate to give my opinions but i make it a point to be in the
most objective rate when dishing it out. I am usually with BASIS not BIASES
when you hear me speak. I can tell you my side of the coin with DUE CONSIDERATION to the other side of it.
May mga bagay na KAILANGAN kang PANIGAN pero ang aking diskarte ay malupit. HINDI ako nagbibigay nag opinion sa ganitong sitwasyon na akin lamang. I tend to site instances from the FACTS or STORIES given and try to assume or hypothetically suggest an opinion thereby making an impression that those who are seeking such comments from me will get something biased to them.
There are so many things that could not be said in words ngunit aking pilit
na sinusubukan sa pagkakataong ito sa kadahilanang ito na ang mga HULING TIPAK ng aking isipan na IIWAN sa INYONG ALAALA (from a song).
The usually thinkable eulogy would be to describe the person lying inside the
coffin as we know him. TAMA! Ganun nga dapat ang nilalaman nitong aking
inusulat sa ngayon. Ang dami ko pang pasakalye eh dun din pala ang tuloy nito.
ok here goes... I WAS:
I. NEVER A GOOD SON:
(people will start nodding in agreement, RIGHT?! Sige magpanggap ka at ika'y
aking tatapikin! LOLZ)
i know for a fact that i have been the ruthless SON of a B****! yes i admit
to those impressions and thinking. pinangatawanan ko na yan mula pa 2nd year
HS. i am not sorry or shameful for that. that is who i am.
hindi po ako nagyayabang or nagmamalaki. IYAN LANG PO ANG KATOTOHANAN kung
kaya't kailangan ko pong tanggapin. i was hurt for THOUGHTLESSLY being
branded as such. pero TO EACH HIS OWN OPINION, WALANG BASAKAN NG TRIP, ETO
ANG GUSTO KO! so i respected those who think of me that way.
BUT, the BIG BUT (not BUTT!) is kayo bang nag isip na ganyan ako ay NAGTANONG
man lang sa inyong mga sarili? NAISIPAN ba ninyo na tanungin sa akin kung
bakit ako ay hindi naging mabuting anak? o baka naman NATIGIL at NAKUNTENTO
na KAYO sa pag-sasabi at pag iisip na ganun nga AKO?!
That is where i am different. naiiba ako sa inyo sapagkat ang mga ANAK na
umaasal ng kagaya ko ay pinag-iisipan ko at pinagtatanong ko sa sarili ko at
sa iba kung bakit kaya ganun UMASTA?
WHY and HOW did they become that person? the two most simple yet complicated
question i always ask, applicable to almost any situation i have encountered.
NGAYON, sa harap ninyong lahat, ako ay una, NAGPAPASALAMAT sa iilang tao na
nakapag tanong niyan sa kanilang sarili. alam ko na hindi lahat ay common
mag-isip. may iilan na nag effort to ask and think about those. MARAMING
MARAMING SALAMAT!!! kahit kayong mga ungaz ay iilan at alam kong wala kayong
nakuhang MATINONG SAGOT sa akin sa tanong na iyon, I really am THANKFUL and
i REALLY APPRECIATE it for doing so. oo KAyo na! HAHAHA!
ikalawa, sa lahat ng tinamaan at nasaktang sa aking pagiging BAD SON,(huli
man daw ay magaling pa rin!!! BIRO LANG PO!) i say I AM SO SORRY FOR HURTING
YOU!!! it was most of the time intentional for you to realize that some BAD
SONS are better that your so called GOOD ones. Yes, i am NOT REGRETFUL for
doing so BUT,
I... AM... SORRY!!! (seriously with tone like PGMA after admitting "lapse in
judgement" in the HELLO!Garci Election Scandal).
Still, hindi po sa pagyayabang o pagmamalaki- iyan lang po ang pawang ako at
and TOTOONG AKO, i did not have lapse in judgement for beign the BAD SON
that you had. I AM PRETTY SURE THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO APPRECIATE YOUR OTHER
CHILDREN BECAUSE ... I was never the GOOD SON.
II. NEVER THE RELIABLE NEPHEW:
(to be continued) di pa po final ung ibang parts...
